Monday, 6th November, 2000, 0.53

"I'm as fake as a wedding cake and I'm vague and I know that I'm homopolitan... pitifully predictable... correctly political..."

So, this Tuesday it's gonna happen........

I would love to write a whole lot about this, but the thing is that I hardly know anything about Al Gore. From what I've read, I get the feeling that Bush jr. is not 'mature' enough to become president. Maybe he's the perfect leader for a retarded state like Texas, but I hope that people in the rest of America can see through it.

But Al Gore..... is he that guy who has Joseph Lieberman as a running mate? (If that is the word I'm looking for.) A jew as a running mate, which is possible "only in America!" I'd say it's more likely that America is the only country where people actually care about the fact that someone is jewish. Of course that's not true, but I hope you understand my point. Did you know that Israel has a jewish president?

One thing I have never really understood, is the difference between Republicans and Democrats. In highschool my history teacher once explained it, but it made so little sence that I didn't fully remember it. It would be nice if they were exact opposites. Then the Democrats would be monarchists, and the Republicans would be... communists! :-)

Well I must say, there are worse presidents. Zimbabwe has a president (Robert Mugabe) who says things like "all white people are racists." (For who hadn't noticed: that is a racist, thus hypocritical, remark.) Yugoslavia had Milosevic, until a few weeks ago.

Now that I think of it, it could become quite funny to have a conference with several presidents. Mugabe: "All white people are racists!" Bush jr.: "That is so stupid. Only a black person can say something like that." Milosevic: "Me Serbia!" Saddam Hussein: "Who invited these intellectuals over here?"

Now, I won't try to imagine George W. Bush mediating between Ehud Barak and Yasser Arafat.

To end this entry: I am working on a completely new version of The Story Behind The Site. It can take a loooong time, but one day it will be finished. More information will follow later.

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Sunday, November 19th, 2000, 0.23

I was going to write a normal journal entry, but I just realized something: today it's exactly two years ago that I had the lustral feast at the university (or actually in 24 hours from now I was there at the time, but it started in the evening of 19 November 1998). For those who don't know what I'm talking about: that was probably the greatest chance I might have ever gotten to tell a girl (Michelle in this case) what I feel for her. There have been times that I was more drunk / high than that night, but I will never get that way again. But maybe one day I can tell a girl about my feelings without being under influence? Yeah, sure, and maybe one day an Islamitic Arabic country will respect human rights. Keep on dreaming.

But that was not what I was going to talk about; actually, I don't have much to report. Except that an aunt of mine died last Sunday. On Thursday was the funeral; I got up at 5.10 in the morning (!) to go there. For me it was not really bad; I hardly talk to my relatives, so I wasn't very close to / with my aunt. But it was horrible to hear her daughter (my cousin, 20 years of age) cry so hard. It has made me realize that having a lonely life in prospect also has some advantages; I won't have a lot of losses in my life. But it has also made me realize that probably one day I will be on the funeral / cremation of one of my parents too. And another day, on the funeral / cremation of my other parent. (Funeral of my mother; cremation of my father.) From January - August 1999 and from March - June 2000, I have lived with the constant idea in my head to kill myself one day. But since I'm not planning to do that anymore, there is a pretty big chance that I will have to face the death of my parents one day.

The making of the new version of The Story Behind The Site is not going very fast. I'm working on so many self-fulfilling things at the same time, that I don't have much time for any of those things. Maybe I should just do one thing at a time, and not start anything else until I have finished that one thing. But the problem is that my inspiration is very variable. Sometimes I have inspiration for one thing; sometimes for another thing. Right now, I don't have much inspiration for writing in this journal. Did anyone notice?

I am still walking around with the idea to make another page. I won't quit this one, but I am thinking about making another one that will be kind of like a 'brother-site.' (That's not quite what I meant, but my dictionary doesn't mention the expression that I'm looking for. Or maybe the problem is not with the dictionary but with the English language... :-) ) The reason why I'm thinking about making another page, is that the most inspiration for this page comes from my 'philosophical' thoughts (maybe that's a pretty big word for it, but I like to call it that) , while for most visitors of this page, those thoughts are probably just an 'addition' to this page. Maybe even an annoying addition. That's one of the reasons why I haven't been updating much lately; most inspiration I have is about other things than mental illnesses and my personal life.

To end this entry, I heard this on a Dutch satirical news show; maybe you have heard it lots of times already, but I want to share it with you just in case: "The candidature of George W. Bush is based on a misunderstanding. In a letter about the upcoming elections, the dyslectical Bush jr. was asked if he wanted to be *present*."

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Monday, November 27th, 2000, 0.27

Sometimes I am thinking that I should write down every funny quote that I hear or read, so that I would get a whole archive full of them. Some of them I would paraphrase, or in the most extreme case I could take them out of their contexts, but not too often. Paraphrasing will be fine too. Right now I only have a small archive of them in my head; "All white people are racists" (2 entries above) was one of them. The litteral quote was "all white people in this country (Zimbabwe) are to blame for this crisis; they are all racists." Well that was not completely litteral, 'cause I translated it from Dutch, and the people who wrote it in the newspaper probably translated it from Zimbabwan, or whatever language they speak over there. But that doesn't matter; it doesn't take the (funny) edge away.

That one wouldn't be my favourite though. A few months ago I was watching some show on tv called Heilig Vuur, Holy Fire, a programme about religion and outlook on life. That episode was about allochtonous children not being admitted to a christian elementary school; I think the school was not just christian, but a little fundamental about it too. They asked the mother of one of the children, why she didn't want her son to be in the same class as allochtonous kids. Her answer: "Allochtonous children go to bed very late at night, and then they have to catch up on their sleep in the classroom, and that will have a negative influence on the education of my son."

It's quotes like that that give the word prejudice a slightly better name. :-) And that one is my favourite so far.

Another great one is from the internet site of Sky Radio, in a news item about the MTV Awards (of MTV USA) a few months ago. "Britney Spears had so little clothes on, that even MTV decided to censor the pictures." (probably by pasting a little haze over some pieces of them)

Yes, MTV, the cradle of anarchy, right? MTV, which makes songs by Eminem sound like bad dance tracks (meaning you hear beats and stuff, but no lyrics). The poor guy isn't even allowed to say valiums. MTV, which also censors the one and a half micro second of breasts in a Lenny Krevits video (Fly Away, or something like that). MTV, which takes the word shit out of a Marilyn Manson song (Disposable Teens). As if that takes the edge off of it. The climax is in that song My Generation, by Limp Bizkit. Not only the word fuck is censored; also the middle fingers, and even Fred Durst's mouth when he pronounces that horrifyingly shocking word.

The funny thing is that Robbie Williams is allowed to sing "give no heads, no backstage passes" on every radio and tv station I have heard it on so far. Or am I misinterpreting this line?

And if I would keep all those quotes, I would also keep the really good ones. The ones that are funny because they put the truth in a funny way. Like the one about George W. Bush being dyslectic (one entry above this one). The tv show I heard it on, was on tv again last Saturday night (for the last time this season, unfortunately). Usually I only hear half the show, because during the other half I am rolling on the floor in laughter. But last Saturday, for the first time in history, someone made a remark that aroused not only laughter, but also a resounding applaud in the studio.

I will give you a short introduction: our crown prince, Willem-Alexander, is engaged (or something like that) to Máxima Zorreguieta, who is the daughter of Jorge Zorreguieta, who was the minister of agriculture during the regime of a dictator in Argentina, I forgot his name, in which thousands or political opponents 'disappeared.' There is often a big debate going on here, about whether Jorge Zorreguieta should be admitted in the country to visit the possible wedding. Well actually it's not really a debate, 'cause 99% of the people agree that he should not be allowed to put one foot on Dutch ground, or at least our queen should not shake his hand or something. Well, last week a journalist accidently caught them (Máxima with her parents) in a car in the Netherlands. I don't know the rest of the story, but that doesn't matter.

In this tv show, for a while they were making funny comments on cows with BSE; the Dutch unofficial name for BSE is "crazy cow illness." At the end of the 'discussion', one of the people on the show said "We have been talking about sick cows from Germany and England being imported into our the Netherlands now, but how about that sick Argentinian meat that entered our country last week?"

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