Wednesday, August 9, 2000, 1.01

I have so much to tell! First of all, I think I saw something like a comet tonight. I was in the nature area and there kept being little flashes in the sky, like small lightnings. And later I saw some shooting stars, not these things that look just like planets; they went really fast. They travelled a few cm (for my eyes - probably billions of km in reality) in less than a second, then there was a flash. At first I thought it was something else, but I saw it so often that it must have been a comet or something. Maybe I'll look up if there was supposed to be something like a comet visible tonight.

But that was not what I wanted to talk about tonight. I wanted to talk about the presidential elections in the USA. Now first of all, let me tell you that maybe it's not up to me to say anything about it. I have never been in that country and I don't know what it's like to be raised with that culture. So maybe I have no right to judge any of it - I'm sorry. But there are some things that I HAVE to say, as a human being.

I saw some things of the campaign on tv. I had seen things like that before, when I was younger, but back then I never realized exactly how stupid it was.

I mean, come on.......... there are like hundreds (or thousands?) of people in a room, then one guy (a candidate) says "I will not fail!" and then all the people in the room start cheering. "Yeah! Bush Bush Bush!" God what a bunch of stupid braindead idiots! I'm sorry if I am offending anyone who is reading this but this is how I feel.

I don't know much about these elections; I know two candidates, Al Gore and George Bush jr, but maybe there are more, I don't know. Anyway, a newspaper had a big article about George Bush jr a few weeks ago, and I must say that he is one of the biggest morons I have ever heard of. That article also talked about Texas (home state of GB jr I think) for a while, well if the average Texan is really as described in that article, then I think people should isolate that state, I mean dig a 5 km broad river around it with hydrochloric acid instead of water. First let the people with a common sence get away from it, then dig that river and let the rest of the people rot away in their self-created misery. The phrase in that article that I will remember for the rest of my life is "George Bush jr. is not exactly an intellectual, but that's okay, 'cause Texans hate intellectuals."

And then this George Bush jr guy is going on about how he will make the White House a decent place again (probably acting against Bill Clinton's affair with Monica Lewinsky). I wonder when the day will come that that imbicile is gonna stand in front of his microphone yelling "I hate the hater, I'd rape the raper, I kill the killer (see the Texas statistics on executions...), I am the idiot who will not be himself..... but at least I won't have an affair with a trainee!" (Then, "of course I won't help the poor, fight crime, improve social services, decrease unemployment, make love instead of war, be of any use at all to all the braindead lunatics who have voted for me.... but at least I won't have an affair with a trainee!!!")

Yeah!!! Bush for president!!!

And then there's this argument that is being brought up every time there are elections, in every single country that I can think of. "You're not gonna vote? But you HAVE TO vote! In some other countries people aren't allowed to vote, so you have to use your right to!"

Yeah, and when people in Rotterdam drive home, they should all take the highways around the city. Because some other cities don't HAVE highways around the city! And every person in the Netherlands should smoke pot every night, and all the Dutch girls over 18 should become prostitutes, because in some other countries, those things are not allowed!

And besides, these presidential elections are one big bowl of crap anyway. I mean, when I was young, I remember when George Bush (sr) was voted for president. At that time, he was the big hero and the saviour of the entire nation. Then a while later there were elections again, and suddenly George Bush sr was the scapegoat of the nation, and should be replaced as soon as possible. Then Bill Clinton became the big hero and the saviour of the entire nation. And look what happened now... WHAT A SURPRISE!!! It's like being the coach of the Turkish national soccer team. At first people think you're gonna save them from all the years of misery, then you reach the quarter finals of Euro 2000 and you actually ARE the hero, then you lose that match and suddenly you're the scapegoat. Have those people EVER thought of the possibility that maybe their PLAYERS aren't good enough? I mean, if Hakan Sükür is the big superstar of your team... then isn't that a 'subtile' indication that something might be wrong?

What I mean is, as long as a country has inhabitants like George Bush jr, then not even the smartest, most intelligent, friendliest and most charismatic president could actually turn that country into a paradise.

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Wednesday, August 23, 2000, 1.40

I'm sorry, I'm really sorry. I mean that I haven't updated this page in so long. There are various reasons. (I'm not really in a writing mood; I hope it doesn't show too much.)

One of the reasons is that I'm still busy finding a job. Almost everything was settled: I was becoming a part time taxi driver for a company here; they especially drive people in the harbour. Like, when a boat comes to the Rotterdam harbour and one of the persons on board has to go to the doctor, I go to the boat and take him to the doctor. And they also drive 'normal' taxi services. Okay, but for what reason did I say *ALMOST* everything was settled? Well, for the same reason that Ruud van Nistelrooy doesn't play for Manchester United right now. And for the same reason that Ron Olyslager is not the reserve goalkeeper of FC Twente at the moment. But I guess that didn't really help you, so I will just say it: I failed my medical. It's a very long story but I will say it very short: I can't just drive a taxi while I'm on antipsychotics. That is, unless my psychiatrist (at the riagg) would give me permission. But the people at the riagg think it's the responsibility of the medical examiner, so they are talking to him now and figuring something out. I really hope it works out right.

Another reason is that I'm translating something. I don't know if I have told this before, but in the first few months of 1999, I started writing a suicide note, and as I kept postponing my suicide, the letter became longer and longer and it turned into something like a journal sometimes. I was reading it again a while ago and I thought maybe it would be nice if I translated it and put it on my page. So I'm translating it now; it will probably be online probably sometime this or next week.

There are some other reasons but I don't have time to write them all here anymore.

I hope I'll be able to come up with more interesting entries soon. Until then, I'm sorry.

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